Sunday, January 23, 2011

Tired

I know that many people reading this relate to my title. We are tired people. I am tired of struggling to keep it all together. Guess what? I am not doing a very good job at it. I am tired.

There are many wonderful things in my life. I am blessed and I know it. But I am still tired. I am tired of the crap.

I pray for God's strength. God answers prayer. He knows the plans He has for me. I am comforted by that. But yet I am still tired.

Even the blessings make me tired. That statement is not very Christlike is it. I am blessed that I have 5 healthy children. That is a fact. But there are challenges that make me tired and make me feel very alone.

I am a fortunate person in that my cancer will not likely kill me. And I feel very fortunate indeed. But I am tired. I am tired of the cancer and the freakin treatments and the way that it affects my life.

So I put my eye on the prize. This life that God has given me and knowing that He is beside me and I don't have to walk it alone. But I am still tired.

So yep I rambled but what are blogs for? I did not mean to be a Debbie Downer (stolen from Dawn) but that is how I feel. Tired.